This morning as I was waiting to drive through the security check point on the way to work I was thinking about the babies, and Dane at home taking care of them, and all of the decisions we're suddenly mulling over. And I was thinking that this wasn't how I envisioned our life being when we started a family . Somehow I always imagined we'd have a house, and there'd be more trees and less concrete in our lives. I also never really imagined what it would be like to go to work every day and leave my babies and my husband at home. It's so much harder than I expected, but at the same time I'm oddly proud of us for adapting. I'm managing to re-orient myself in the land of science, and Dane is such an excellent father, taking care of the boys, cleaning the house, and still managing to do contract work at home. Anyway, I was sitting in the car thinking all of this, and thinking that having our family NOW totally compensated for living in the city, and having a stressful job, and all the trouble and fatigue and pages and pages of boring math. Then suddenly, from the radio, Dwight Eisenhower says to me, "We must guard against unwarranted influence, whether sought or unsought, by the military industrial complex." And I looked down at the fistful of credentials I was about to present to the guard at the gate, and up at all of the bunker-like buildings on the air force base where I work, and I thought, "Whoa."